Post by Castiel on Jul 8, 2013 9:11:42 GMT -5
Castiel looked up at the sky, and he stared as he watched his brothers and sisters falling, falling to the ground. He stared at them for hours, finding it hard to watch....they was his brothers and sisters falling....he was trying to help them, not hurt them. Once again his plans were ruined. Destroyed by Metatron. He was betrayed. Completely betrayed. Cas felt something he never felt before, and that was a sick feeling. He felt sick to his stomach, and he knew it was his human emotions kicking in. He literally threw up. He sighed holding his stomach and when he looked up...it stopped. Finally. Only now, he knew that his brothers and sisters were stuck here, on Earth..... with Cas human and helpless.
He sighed and sat down on the ground just thinking for the longest time. He knew he would have to return to Sam and Dean, but he wasn’t sure he could. What would Dean think of this? Castiel betrayed him again by not trusting Dean’s thoughts on the situation. He went off on his own...again...and now this happened. He knew Dean would hate him even more now. That made him feel sick also, but he was okay for now. He had to hold it together. He sighed shaking a bit. His emotions were definitely getting the better of him.
Finally he stood up, and started to walk. The Church building where Crowley and Sam were wasn’t too far from here...was it? He tried to remember where it was, so he kept walking. He knew he looked like a wreck. In fact.... he was in a forest, and there were not much around him. Metatron couldn’t have left him some place better then this? Seriously? Castiel sighed. He continued to walk, for hours..... finally hunger and tiredness started to hit him so he stayed the night in the woods, by himself. He could hear noises, animals maybe? Perhaps praying on him? Wanting him as a meal? Castiel couldn’t care less honestly, after everything he did it was only what he deserved. He knew he would never go back to Heaven. Not after all this. He didn't deserve it. Although what got him going was the fact that he could help his brothers and sisters....he had to at least fix what he had done...again.... and then whatever would happen to him would be in God’s hands.
He woke up the next morning completely dehydrated so he went to find a water fountain. Thankfully a few miles down the road there was one. He drank as much as he could, but he was hungry. He hated these feelings and didn’t know how Dean and Sam put up with them. As he continued walking someone finally pulled over to him.
“Hey buddy...you alright?” the girl asked. She was young, pretty, and a truck driver. He stared at her for a moment in shock that someone even noticed him.
He sighed, “I’m lost,” he said honestly, “And starving, and cold....” he knew he sounded pathetic.
“Come on get in... “ she said. He knew taking rides from strangers wasn’t the smartest, especially without his powers but he didn’t care.... he had to try to get to shelter somehow.
She took him to a diner and got him some food. He ate quickly so they could get moving. “Thank you...” he said quietly. He didn’t expect someone to be this nice, really...
“Where you heading?” she asked.
“To my friends church...I must find them...” he said and told her around where the Men of Letters house was. He didn’t tell her about the building itsself though of course.
“Did you see that crazy meteor shower last night?” she asked. “Its all over the news...”
He nodded, “I saw it in the woods,” he said getting a bit choked up.
“You alright?” she asked.
He nodded, “Yea...fine,” he said and she shrugged at him. They continued the rest of the ride in silence.
She dropped him off and he got out, “Thank you.... I do not have money to pay you...” he said.
“Its no trouble...” she said to him.
Castiel nodded and thanked her once more before shutting the door. What he didn’t notice, was she looked at him with a smile as he left, “Good luck Castiel... may you bring us all back to Heaven someday...” she said and eventually drove off.
Castiel sighed as he walked inside the church where he thought Sam and Dean were. He looked around and saw Crowley there, beaten and tied up. "Crowley...." Castiel asked hoping the demon wouldn't notice Cas's human nature. "You look like Hell....pardon the expresson...." Cas said and realized he didn't look much better. "Where are Sam and Dean?" he asked.
Tag: Crowley
Setting: Old church (takes place right after the finale)